#23 Gloomy Days

Caution: First and foremost, sorry if its abit a little more lengthy than the rest of the posts😯😐

                                                             Hihihi *laughs evily*

Hmmm, been busy all this while...
Rasa macam hari-hari beban buat diri aku
Hari Isnin sampai Jumaat sekolah, sabtu rehat pastu ahad sekolah lagi

Padehal Sunday shud be a rest day tho (Haiss)
Dah la kelas dia pun start lambat; 2.30 to 5.30 petang,
balek pun kul 6, depending on the bas datang cepat ke lambat

Dahlah takde kawan nak berbual sangad.
Tapi naseb baek ah haritu ade jugak la tau2 sikit nama diorang

Dengan memulakan langkah pertama, toleh ke arah mereka.
Lepastu salam (Pastu three -.-)
pastu tanya nama.

Pastu.
ade syafiqah lagi.
Haisssssssssssss☹
Seumur hidup mesti ade nama sama dalam kelas
Tak sah kalau takde

Alright.
Then, at the same time, kene buat group per dari last weeknye lesson.                                                                                                 Tu pun aku sorang, lagi

Sorang lagi dan lagi
^tak tau nak letak ape

okeii selepas itu, diorang pun ckp "awak group dengan umairah and atiqah" (kut)
tapi malangnya diorang absent

and that was during at the end of the lesson.

So, redha je la kan.
Lagi brp minggu je dah kene submission.
Takde sorang pun aku boleh contact.
Ntah lah.

yang saat2 terakhir sebelum waktu rehat kat kelas, aku ade sikit ngantuk cause
too long la ustaz tu berbual, se end up terlelap.
tak sengaje okaii

lagi2 duk depan sorang heis
see the problem? duk sorang, ngantuk, penat

Rase cm nak quit pun ade.
Tapi, tabahkan je lah hati ni.                                                                          
Nak beli buku pun malas.
Mahal sangad ape kejadah sampai $22                            

End up pun tengok slaids (slides) cikgu tunjuk and ajar kat kelas.
Akak aku pun yang belajar pun tak beli buku masa diploma.

Tating perrr tadi ade philiphino lady call tadi kt matrix, "Halo maam guud morning"
*Its afternoonnn*😑😑 terus ends call...

Okayy patah balek to this, Diploma is life so tight.
Tapi takkan aku nak sia-siakan masa cmni kan?
Aku kene ubah.

Tapi pelan2,
cuma orang jer yang tak paham aku
hm

But pape pun
Allah tak kan uji hamba-hambanya lebih dari kemampuan atau ability mereka.
I believe all these have its hikmah and kebaikan insyaallah amin.
Susah2 dulu, senang nanti

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Eh heyyy, Happy Moments!!😃😊

Alright, enough of gloomy and sorrows.
Pahit kan rasa dia? Lets cerita ttg Happy Moments! (WEEE ;)

Kalau korang nak tahu, harini birthday orang tuuu laaarrr
Shaa for short nama diaaa
excited gilerrr ahh
fuhh i accidentally press delete.
kalau tak ni semue hilang, naseb ade redo button (phew!)

And I tak shabar rasenyer nak bagi hadiah for herrrr
But hopefully she tak marah me cos I didnt buy her her desired bag.
and I didnt know where to find nice bag and I dunno
-Bruh

Luckily ade kawan baek hati kiter ni, tinaa ^^ teehee yang teman kiter last min haritu,
okaylah kan? Untuk beli smth for her ehem2, birthdaeeee!~
Thanks tina, such a great help ;) huhu💛

So, harap2 lah sangad2 dia happy and enjoy the small tak seberape gift and kad I
had made for her. Hopefully can create a smile on her face.
That is something I hoped for.
Her smile :)

Aight, kelas pun guud news cancelled tadi pagi.
Adelah terjegat kat luar kelas tunggu punye tunggu cikgu
takde dah 30mins sey

Pastu end up *ting ting!*
*whatsapp*
cikgu somehow last min bagitau kitorg yang dia kene pergi            
field trip and suruh kitorg buat quiz for 11.30am lesson

Kesimpulannya, lesson tak adeee~

eh heyyy naseb baek Mardhiah bilang yang Mardiana and Ryna
ade kat library jugak skrng kat all the way back.
Thanks.

Dah tegur.
Patah balek desktop.

Okeii ni random, nak bagi tina 5 pods end up
ah lantak ah kasi lebih haha macam yang waktu nak bagi meringues tu, lel
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Back to square one story below...
heis
sorry but i always feel left out
no matter how
no matter what and why

Dari first day aku masuk ITE, everything was fine.
Till today, everything changes.

Hmm, terpinga2 atst* tertanye2 jugaak
Am I wrong? What mistake I've done, why am I acting weirdly and
not normal like other people? Why am I lonely? Why am I so annoying to
people that who could not 'tahan' but yet feel 'serik' of my attitude towards
them. Question by question always play a fool in my mind, disturbing every single day.

Whenever I see any of my friends sad or angry or idk any negative feelings, I
always question myself, why. But obviously people won't want to hurt ours, so they
hide secretly the problem, which is my kind of attitude.

Dah cakap pun, tak reti nak ubah.
Cause what I know, I am the kind of yang tak belajar dari kesilapan.
True, I always keep that in mind.
walaupun orang panggil aku mcm2 mcm annoying ker menyesal kawan
blabla aku tetap dengan pendirian aku, kawan aje lah.
sebaik2 pun buat baek dengan semua orang

aku takde mase lah nak pilih kawan, tapi korang yang buat aku rasa
mcm nk kene.

aku pun malas nak layan karenah korang yang sikit2 merajuk.
even though aku pun kuat merajuk but heck care
se childish fer what...

sampai sini je lah yer
terima kasih semua yang membaca!
memang aku akan rasa guilty in every bad things I see happening around me
or things I do

I takleh elak ah perasaan tu.
Gratefully, ade rose, shaa and tina <3
huhuu at least tak rase bored or lonely sangad...

*atst - at the same time

To habeskan citer, layan je lar lagu kat bawah ni kalau bosan ker hape kan 🙅

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💌signing off,

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